Life has been just so good :))))!!!!!
July: Wow this is going to be a big month. This is a month intended to be filled with steady confident energy, lemonade, being blissfully unaware (or at least pretending to be), yearning men, work/co-workers, reconnecting with school friends/my amazing, perfect, and wonderful big, female rage, dates and the monkey covering eyes emoji spammed!! Life has been pretty good – July is about to be a big month with some quite important events and milestones but I have this feeling I’m going to be more than ok!
Ins:
- Abbreviations
- “OOL” (out of the loop)
- Patting ourselves on the back for surviving everything we have lived through in our lives and coming out the other side who we see despite everything
- Acknowledging how smart I am
- Thoughts of the pure joy that is sweet partial drunk kisses through full teeth smiles
- Social gatherings
- Invisible ink for texts
- Sitting by a fire (patio)
- The unbeatable French fries and salad combo
- Helping others just because
- Ozempic allegations
- Showering those I love in love back
- Yearning men
- Being respected
- Complaining
- Margarita glasses for everything
- Sleep
- Expecting people to meet me on my level
- Raya
- Mourning while still living in the moment
- Europe
- Going to bed early
- Having a lethal face card
- DANCING!!! But more specifically dancing like a little gremlin until you can’t anymore
- Pig tails
- Men texting first
- Beach walks/exercise
- Glitter (but NOT on clothes)
- Sticking my nose in other peoples business harmlessly
- Arts and crafts with friends
- Confidence
- Honesty
- Grudges
- Positive outlooks
- Men with biceps and goals in life
- Being trouble/causing trouble
- Sun screen
- Water
- Building an ego (not an over inflated one, just one in general)
- Taking risks and being open to things I wouldn’t usually be open to
- Giggles
- Double dates
- My perfect, amazing, incredible, and flawless big❤️
- Sewing!!!!!
- Being “permanently derailed” and “the people’s princess” as I am
- Upping my fashion game
- Audacity, but more specifically, HAVING the audacity
- Ladybugs
- Being blissfully unaware
- Taking a deep breath
- Being lovable
- A lack of giving a fuck
- Lemonade
- Protecting my peace in ways I haven’t tried before
- Getting an apology from those who have wronged me
- BRAT summer
- Reclaiming July 19th for myself and all of the hard work I’ve done and person I’ve become today🩷
- Rainbows
- The color pink
- Being cool
- Putting the word “nepo” in front of words and in sentences it doesn’t always belong in
- Chiropractors
- Being spontaneous
- Work!!!!!!
- Feeling loved
- Themed hang outs/fun things to do
- IOS 18
- Amnesty – more specifically as a verb to be used when you want to say something, but everyone agrees to there being no repercussions that can be faced
- Sabrina Carpenter
- Loving!
- Dates!!!!
- Living in the present
- Treasuring Camp Cohen and what it means to me and eveyone in my life!!!!!
- Hating
- Double dates
- The rules: Love needs action, trust needs proof, sorry needs change.
- Fun random facts
- New friends
- One peice bathing suits
- Loving myself
- Quality time
- Being happy for others
- A lust for life
- Life long friendships
- LOTS of reflection
- Apples and peanut butter
- Positivity
- Being delicate with myself and knowing that’s ok even if I don’t think I need to be
- Monkey covering eyes emoji 🙈
- Old Kendrick Lamar albums (more specifically, section 80)
- Building fires
- Being a Nantucket local
- Farmers markets
- Reminiscing
- Using the reservation list to invade the privacy of people I grew up with
- Celebrating all the person growth I’ve had the past year and the person I am today!!
- Romantic prospects
- Being nonchalant
- Celebrating my 1/2 Birthdayyyy
- Earning things from me and in general
- Respecting my own boundaries
- Confronting issues head on and not letting myself have panic attacks in the lead up
- New additions to Camp Cohen
- Learning how to be legit bartending
- Doing things that scare me in different ways
- Living my life as I want to
- Female rage
- My finsta
- Valuing my time
- Recognizing this is a big month for me for so many reason and showing myself grace within it
- Closing the circle on my healing journey by passing a big milestone
- Being more public about my blog but also preserving its secrecy because that’s one of my favorite parts about it
- Being single
Outs:
- Losers!!!!!
- Shoes!!!!
- People not even on my same level of life sucking up value space in my mind and time in my day
- Waiting around for apologies
- iPhone finger dents you get from holding it a certain way
- People thinking they can steam roll over me
- Social anxiety
- Too much 🪴
- Being two faced/two faced people
- Being anxious for nothing and not being grateful for everything
- Shrinking back into states of fear or who I used to be
- Old energy
- Ditching your friends/accepting into my life who are just fine ditching me
- Not being obsessed with me, duh!
- Grudges
- People with bad music taste
- Clinton Kane (he was never in but I ride for my girl Brooke)
- Seeing randoms from school pop up on instagram suddenly on Nantucket claiming it for the aesthetic like they are locals
- Being scared about the future (small scale and large scale)
- Not putting my foot down
- Resentment
- Stressing or even giving a second thought to anyone who’s not obsessed with me
- Confusing giving the benefit of the doubt generously when warranted and being too nice
- The INSANELY unnecessary stress that comes with July 4th and letting it consume me
- Dealing with people not worth my time
- Closing myself off to things that scare me
- Worrying about/thinking about how I’m being perceived (I’ve never been like this before and I don’t like it)
- Going out (to like bars and clubs) for the moment
- Mourning
- July 19.
- Letting others drag things out
- Tolerating disrespect/biting my tongue ever
- Guilt
- Boring people
- The pickleball trend
- Letting people I’m with go home early
- Letting past trauma wear me down
- Giving those from my past any power over me in the present

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