July 2024: Ins and Outs

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Life has been just so good :))))!!!!!

July: Wow this is going to be a big month. This is a month intended to be filled with steady confident energy, lemonade, being blissfully unaware (or at least pretending to be), yearning men, work/co-workers, reconnecting with school friends/my amazing, perfect, and wonderful big, female rage, dates and the monkey covering eyes emoji spammed!! Life has been pretty good – July is about to be a big month with some quite important events and milestones but I have this feeling I’m going to be more than ok!

Ins:

  • Abbreviations
  • “OOL” (out of the loop)
  • Patting ourselves on the back for surviving everything we have lived through in our lives and coming out the other side who we see despite everything
  • Acknowledging how smart I am
  • Thoughts of the pure joy that is sweet partial drunk kisses through full teeth smiles
  • Social gatherings
  • Invisible ink for texts
  • Sitting by a fire (patio)
  • The unbeatable French fries and salad combo
  • Helping others just because
  • Ozempic allegations
  • Showering those I love in love back
  • Yearning men
  • Being respected
  • Complaining
  • Margarita glasses for everything
  • Sleep
  • Expecting people to meet me on my level
  • Raya
  • Mourning while still living in the moment
  • Europe
  • Going to bed early
  • Having a lethal face card
  • DANCING!!! But more specifically dancing like a little gremlin until you can’t anymore
  • Pig tails
  • Men texting first
  • Beach walks/exercise
  • Glitter (but NOT on clothes)
  • Sticking my nose in other peoples business harmlessly
  • Arts and crafts with friends
  • Confidence
  • Honesty
  • Grudges
  • Positive outlooks
  • Men with biceps and goals in life
  • Being trouble/causing trouble
  • Sun screen
  • Water
  • Building an ego (not an over inflated one, just one in general)
  • Taking risks and being open to things I wouldn’t usually be open to
  • Giggles
  • Double dates
  • My perfect, amazing, incredible, and flawless big❤️
  • Sewing!!!!!
  • Being “permanently derailed” and “the people’s princess” as I am
  • Upping my fashion game
  • Audacity, but more specifically, HAVING the audacity
  • Ladybugs
  • Being blissfully unaware
  • Taking a deep breath
  • Being lovable
  • A lack of giving a fuck
  • Lemonade
  • Protecting my peace in ways I haven’t tried before
  • Getting an apology from those who have wronged me
  • BRAT summer
  • Reclaiming July 19th for myself and all of the hard work I’ve done and person I’ve become today🩷
  • Rainbows
  • The color pink
  • Being cool
  • Putting the word “nepo” in front of words and in sentences it doesn’t always belong in
  • Chiropractors
  • Being spontaneous
  • Work!!!!!!
  • Feeling loved
  • Themed hang outs/fun things to do
  • IOS 18
  • Amnesty – more specifically as a verb to be used when you want to say something, but everyone agrees to there being no repercussions that can be faced
  • Sabrina Carpenter
  • Loving!
  • Dates!!!!
  • Living in the present
  • Treasuring Camp Cohen and what it means to me and eveyone in my life!!!!!
  • Hating
  • Double dates
  • The rules: Love needs action, trust needs proof, sorry needs change.
  • Fun random facts
  • New friends
  • One peice bathing suits
  • Loving myself
  • Quality time
  • Being happy for others
  • A lust for life
  • Life long friendships
  • LOTS of reflection
  • Apples and peanut butter
  • Positivity
  • Being delicate with myself and knowing that’s ok even if I don’t think I need to be
  • Monkey covering eyes emoji 🙈
  • Old Kendrick Lamar albums (more specifically, section 80)
  • Building fires
  • Being a Nantucket local
  • Farmers markets
  • Reminiscing
  • Using the reservation list to invade the privacy of people I grew up with
  • Celebrating all the person growth I’ve had the past year and the person I am today!!
  • Romantic prospects
  • Being nonchalant
  • Celebrating my 1/2 Birthdayyyy
  • Earning things from me and in general
  • Respecting my own boundaries
  • Confronting issues head on and not letting myself have panic attacks in the lead up
  • New additions to Camp Cohen
  • Learning how to be legit bartending
  • Doing things that scare me in different ways
  • Living my life as I want to
  • Female rage
  • My finsta
  • Valuing my time
  • Recognizing this is a big month for me for so many reason and showing myself grace within it
  • Closing the circle on my healing journey by passing a big milestone
  • Being more public about my blog but also preserving its secrecy because that’s one of my favorite parts about it
  • Being single

Outs:

  • Losers!!!!!
  • Shoes!!!!
  • People not even on my same level of life sucking up value space in my mind and time in my day
  • Waiting around for apologies
  • iPhone finger dents you get from holding it a certain way
  • People thinking they can steam roll over me
  • Social anxiety
  • Too much 🪴
  • Being two faced/two faced people
  • Being anxious for nothing and not being grateful for everything
  • Shrinking back into states of fear or who I used to be
  • Old energy
  • Ditching your friends/accepting into my life who are just fine ditching me
  • Not being obsessed with me, duh!
  • Grudges
  • People with bad music taste
  • Clinton Kane (he was never in but I ride for my girl Brooke)
  • Seeing randoms from school pop up on instagram suddenly on Nantucket claiming it for the aesthetic like they are locals
  • Being scared about the future (small scale and large scale)
  • Not putting my foot down
  • Resentment
  • Stressing or even giving a second thought to anyone who’s not obsessed with me
  • Confusing giving the benefit of the doubt generously when warranted and being too nice
  • The INSANELY unnecessary stress that comes with July 4th and letting it consume me
  • Dealing with people not worth my time
  • Closing myself off to things that scare me
  • Worrying about/thinking about how I’m being perceived (I’ve never been like this before and I don’t like it)
  • Going out (to like bars and clubs) for the moment
  • Mourning
  • July 19.
  • Letting others drag things out
  • Tolerating disrespect/biting my tongue ever
  • Guilt
  • Boring people
  • The pickleball trend
  • Letting people I’m with go home early
  • Letting past trauma wear me down
  • Giving those from my past any power over me in the present

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